You and I

I saw your face pop up on my phone and a flood of memories washed over me. It seems like a lifetime ago that our love was new, when possibilities were endless and I thought we would be forever. Truthfully, I don’t even know anymore why we didn’t work out. Only that I’m happier now that I’ve ever been.

While I can’t remember why we fell apart, I’ll never forget the lessons I learned from the heartache of our breakup. I was forced to stand on my own again and find the courage to make my own path. It’s scary being alone when you haven’t been solo in so long, but I discovered it got a little easier every day and I grew a little stronger.

Sure, I had days when I was still sad and missing us, but I realized that I missed being part of a couple, not necessarily you. There was a reason why we didn’t make it, because I needed to find myself again after having lost myself in you for so long. It hurt for so long until one day, it just didn’t.

Now, that all seems like another life and my days are much different, much happier. I wish you all the best in whatever life path you choose and I hope all your dreams come true, but I’ll never be apart of either again. So, as I see your name pop up, I don’t have any desire to answer. I’m going to leave the past just where it is, in the past. It doesn’t have any place in my life and if I answered your call, it might just make me hurt again.

As I decline your call, a sigh of relief relaxes me and helps me realize that I’m doing just what I need to be doing. Leaving the past where it’s meant to stay so I can keep building a happy future today. This is my life and these are my choices. I didn’t lose you, I found myself. It was the best discovery I could have ever made.

As Always XOXOXO NicoleHeart